Chapter 8, Aisha Exposed
I lay quietly on the full size bed in our double which Camie was graciously paying for, and Kayla insisted I stay in against my wishes to get my own room. Kayla and Camie had quickly decided to share a bed which worked well for me. I continued to think about the conversation I would eventually need to have with Tony. I realized that this get-a-way wouldn’t last forever, and that I would soon be on my way back home. What was I going to do? Would I ask him to leave? Would I leave? Would he lie about his infidelity? Would I foolishly accept his lie? There were so many questions floating around inside my head. Yet, I knew the ultimate question was whether or not I still wanted to be with my husband. And if the answer was yes, was it because I really wanted him or because I just didn’t want to be a laughing stock. I knew I loved him—that wasn’t really a question, but how would this affect my love? And if I stayed, would it send a signal that cheating was allowed or could he be reformed? Could I ever trust him again?
But this second night was different. I just wouldn’t allow my eyes to close. I knew I wasn’t ready to have an emotional breakdown even in a room shared by my closest friends. So I quickly changed my clothes and left the room to take what was supposed to be a quiet walk. Yet, the voice in my head never stopped talking—not even for one second. I headed back to the room after a failed attempt to clear my head. Upon entering the room, I moved intently towards the dresser where Kayla had left her phone. I picked up the small device and without a second thought, I found myself calling my home. I listened closely to hear the ring and before I could talk myself into hanging up, I heard Tony’s deep but soft voice.